(2015, on the box office failures of Poseidon, Stealth, and Glory Road derailing his career) The reality was-and I'm not just saying this to justify it-I wasn't particularly happy and was overwhelmed by the movies. Soon after I became scared financially, became scared from a career standpoint. I wasn't even getting independent films suddenly because I had become, not box office poison, but people said, "Oh, he's not working as a film star." So I had to say, "What the fuck am I, if not that?" And I said to myself, "Josh, you did this job because you love acting and storytelling and playing characters." I did a tiny play. I started going back to doing these movies that were personal filmmaking. Even there for a couple of years I kind of missed. I did movies that were indulgent. Too tonally inaccessible. They didn't work. They had no commercial viability. But Hide Away is a movie I really love. I worked my ass off there, and I poured my soul into that movie and it wasn't even released. It was a very lonely and very scary time.And has it shifted? Not necessarily, I'm still here fighting for The Mend, because I think it's a very worthy movie and I know that some people will love it. I think my performance is raw and borderline dangerous. I'm hoping that some people find it. Then you start making bigger life decisions, man. I had a kid. I went through a tough divorce and I went through a period of time where I was really tested. My career wasn't going well; my life wasn't going well. And I was having to really look at myself in the mirror to figure out what I'm going to do to get through this.Honestly, I probably chose a very commercial TV project, and to be number two, so I could spend more time with my son and take care of him in the early years of his life. I was making choices that were very specific: Make a living, take care of your family, and if you can, find some movies that you can sink your teeth into. And just not worry about whether anyone sees them or not. Have the goal be the experience of making it. If I could walk away from it and feel I had learned something, that had to become enough, because otherwise I would've kept waiting for validation from commercial or critical successes.There's nothing abnormal about my experience. And look, you know who said the best thing to me? Alec Baldwin. I was sitting at a sushi restaurant, and I knew him vaguely. He said, "Hey man, whatever happens, don't let them make you believe that when you fall from the movie star tree that you're rotted fruit." He put it so beautifully, because he said, "Everyone falls." And it's true. Everyone falls. What happens to so many actors, when they fall, is that they get really fucked up and broken and usually are gone. Those weird eccentric talents like Christopher Walken or Mickey Rourke-who fall from that tree-and they're just so whacked-out interesting that they come back and have these resurrections. But a lot of people just disappear. It's incredibly rare for someone to live in an incredibly exalted way for huge periods of time. The Meryl Streeps of the world are total anomalies.
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